Our Blessed Adoption Journey (Cont.)

It took time for both us to be on the same page in terms of adoption.  When we got there, we researched the different options we had available to us.  We ultimately chose Lifetime.  We applied online and found out our application had been accepted just a few days later, right before we were to go on our anniversary vacation.  We spent a lot of time on that vacation discussing adoption and parenthood.  After all, this was no longer about "if" and was now about "when."  When we returned we got to work on our letter, profile, website and home study.

We spent so much time getting the profiles ready and completing the home study that when we were done the wait really hit us.  There was a period of sadness and wondering if this was really going to happen, but we focused our energy on doing things together.  Those things that would do less frequently once we became parents: fancy dinners, weekend getaways, late night movies. Before we knew it we received a call from our Lifetime coordinator Diane letting us know a birthmother had seen our website and wanted to speak with us.  There were a few health concerns about the situation that had us concerned, but we went forward anyway. The conversation that night was amazing.  This woman was wonderful, funny, brave, smart and full of love for her child.  So much love she wanted to give him a life she could not provide at the time. 

After speaking to her, the possibility of the health issues were no longer important.  If we have conceived this child we would not have been given an option.  We looked at each other after the conversation and said this is our baby.  He was meant to find us.  The weekend after the call felt like the longest of our life. 

On Monday we received a call from Diane. The birthmom wanted to match with us! That night we received an e-mail from Hudson's birthmom which brought us to tears.  She wanted to give us the most precious gift in the world, her child.  We had two and half months before Hudson was born in which we established a relationship with our birthmother and her family.  They are now like our family too. 

As we look at our son, we can hardly believe he is real.  This is the most amazing time of our life.  In the thick of disappoint from failed treatments, we could not understand why it was happening to us.  Now we know. Our infertility was just a leg of a journey. There was a little boy still making his way to us. After our last fertility treatment, a friend told us that when you ask God for something He only has three answers, "Yes", "Not right now", and "I have something else in mind for you."  He definitely had something else in mind for us. Something wonderful beyond words.  He brought us our son and a friendship with an amazing woman and her family who will forever be in our hearts.

Hudson is now eight weeks old.  He is simply wonderful.  We spend hours each day just looking at him in awe.  He is growing so fast!  Spending time and playing with him is just an amazing experience. We are learning all kinds of unique things about him.  His likes and dislikes. He especially loves to dance while in his sling.  It still seems a little unbelievable that he is here and we are parents.  He was definitely worth the wait!

Lifetime is amazing to work with.  You have made an excellent choice in choosing them to help you on your adoption journey.

With much love and good wishes,
Julie and Brian